I didn't get to sleep til 2 am last night, kept waking up all night and have been throwing up since like 8:30 this morning. I also have a pounding headache now to go with it and cold sweat. FUN.

Also, guess who missed their midterm? I have been trying to make it out of the house all morning but every 5-10 minutes I have to run to the bathroom. Is this how pregnant women feel?

Since I'm in a perpetual state of puke and can barely open my mouth without projectile vomiting, my mom is contacting the school for me. Do you know how awesome it feels to have to have your mom speak to your professor for you because you're too fucking incapacitated to do so? Because every time I open my mouth to speak, I start gagging. I'm not even throwing up anything at this point. Just liquid and phlegm.

Spoke to my psychiatrist, she said the puking should pass relatively soon. And tonight to take 1/2 of a Celexa and do not take the Lamictal. How I'm going to cut that tiny pill in half, I have no idea.

I also have therapy tonight. I hope I can make it there.

I'm so fucking tired of this shit. I just want to be normal and not need meds because EVERY TIME I try medication something like this happens. Every single fucking time and I'm just so over it. I'm going to fail out of school because of this stupid fucking illness. How am I going to be a doctor if I'm going to spend my life fighting this? How am I going to do anything?


I'm just so damn tired.