I want to thank everyone for the gifs and kind words. This was a rough day but I am feeling better. I have learned that pretending you aren't scared can make it worse. The scared wants to be acknowledged. Once you have paid the scared your respects, it will go back to its paper and only make occasional demands. You guys, it really did help to hear from you. I can't believe how disjointed my post was - evidence of my entire pre-frontal cortex being taken over by anxiety. I am clear-headed now and even found a few copes in the back of the closet. 9 days until I will know whether it's cancer or not. I can make it 9 days. Here are topics I will post about in the next 9 days. I wish Tatiana Maslany had won a Golden Globe for Orphan Black. And I want to cosplay Tauriel from the Hobbit movie. Brain dump complete. Thank you, people of Groupthink. Seriously. Thank you. A lot.