Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed by everything. My life isn't exceptional, but I often get the feeling that my emotions are a lot more raw that a lot of people.
I think a lot of it is body chemistry. After I had my second child, I had anxiety that would flare up for the first 36 hours of my period, pretty reliably. It's mostly evened out now, which is a relief. I had a friend (who is working on a doctorate in psychology) tell me that it's a chemical thing and it latches on to any thought it can. Just telling myself that and knowing it would be over in a couple days really helped.
That's not the only thing, but it sucked. I was on hormonal BCPs when I was younger, and they seemed to amplify instead of evening out all the stuff that went on. I'm older now and have my tubes tied, so I don't have to worry about it, but all the stuff is still there. I spend the last three days in an uncomfortably aroused state, and now I've crashed and am feeling incredibly lonely. I moved from Alaska to Texas six months ago and, while I've met a few people, I just miss my friends immensely.
So, I'm basically thanking everyone for being here, Jezebel, and especially Groupthink, feels familiar. Even though I don't think I'm very well recognized, I feel like I know a bit about a lot of you and it's comforting.