I really appreciate how many of you took the time to talk with me yesterday. I made an appointment with a therapist, then did some journaling. I came home and GreenHunk was super sweet and initiated sex and afterward I told him I’d figured out that initiating sex is a trigger for me and it probably made him feel like I was treating him like my abuser and that probably freaked him out, and he nodded his head vigorously. Typical GreenHunk: heart of gold, can’t put it into words. You guys helped me figure out a lot of stuff. I <3 you all so much.