I was scrolling through FB and saw a picture of a bunch of people I went to grad school with over a decade ago. They were all on vacation together, with all their little ones. Most of them were married to people they'd met in grad school. All of them were coupled and with kids.
It just made me feel so lonely. I'm never going to belong anywhere. I wish I had that tight group of friends who all go on vacation together. I have just a couple close friends, one from high school, one from college and one from a place I worked five years ago. They're all married.
I'm just tired and sad and lonely and middle-aged. It's been a beautiful spring here and I wish I had someone to enjoy it with.