And tonight, I think I figured out what that missing puzzle piece I've been looking for was.
I was hanging out with Prince Fluffybutt (and things have been amazing, by the way) and we were talking about our friends, or what we refer to as our family. The Prince jokingly was like "all our friends are broken" and I replied "psht, dude WE'RE broken too. We're all broken. But somehow when we come together, we make a whole. The broken pieces just fit together. Kind of like...a puzzle."
I forgot that sometimes, among my insanity, I have my moments of clarity.