omg you guys! I got three pieces of really good news today:
1. GreenHunk's tax refund is much bigger than we thought it would be!
2. I did his FAFSA and it looks like he's actually getting some Pell Grant money! Not the whole amount, but like 1/3 to 1/2 of his tuition for the year, and that's much better than I was envisioning!!!
3. I got a job interview for a contract job today! I just randomly applied to it yesterday and it was like a 2 week old ad, so I figured I'd never hear anything again.
Oh, AND. In consequence of that whole post I made last week about my relationship with porn, I started doing a lot of self discovery and writing about my ideas about sex, and I had a huge emotional breakthrough. I don't know how to put it into words more than that, but where before I was struggling with staying focused in the present and felt intruding thoughts of abuse, now I'm staying fully present and feeling none of the ambivalence I've literally always felt about sex. And I don't think I would have been able to do that last thing without you, GT. You are so awesome. I know from experience that these emotional things are always 2 steps forward and 1 back, so I know it's probably not totally gone for good, but it is SO much better. And I am so grateful.
Celebrate with me, friends! Have some chocolate for lunch! Or wine, I won't judge.