So I finally broke it off with the guy I've been kinda sorta dating. He was one of my friends and we tried to date, but it failed pretty badly.

We had originally made plans to spend the night together last night since I'd be at an event really close to his house. Obviously those plans were cancelled, but I was still near him and it just bummed me out so much.

Usually I subscribe to the theory that "the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else", but I logged onto OkCupid and I just couldn't deal with putting together a profile again. I've been having a lot of failed dating happen the past 2 years and I just have dating fatigue. Or something. It makes me really sad when things don't work out.

I went to my messages and saw near the top the joking exchange we'd had a long time ago when we were just friends and I first found him on OkCupid. Looks like he updated his profile picture to be one that I'd just taken of him and posted to facebook a few days ago. Just took the wind out of my sails. Looks like I'm not the only one trying out this strategy.

This is harder than any other breakup because I have to see him all the time (either that, or stop going to my friends' events). I wish I could just block him out of my life for a while.