So I finally broke up with my boyfriend, the one with the sexual dysfunction issues. And I am feeling like total shit about it.
It happened this morning, totally unplanned. We hadn't talked about what was going on with us for over two weeks and things seemed to be going well, but once again, he got quite distant from me last night and was even more quiet and withdrawn this morning. When I asked him what was wrong, he just said "This isn't right." And that was that. It was clear that things were over. He said that he thought about things over the weekend and realized that saying this problem was a result of quitting pot and being stressed and anxious, and all of that, was just an excuse and ultimately we are just not right together. While I don't disagree that the relationship was not working, it still felt like a punch to the gut. This really is all my fault. I can try to rationalize it all I want, but at the end of the day, I just wasn't good enough to get his dick hard. All the other reasons why he might have been having this trouble were just "excuses."
I feel completely lost. We connected so well in the beginning. We were making plans for the future, he wanted me to meet his family. And then...apparently he lost interest in me. I wasn't exciting enough, or sexy enough, or good enough to keep him satisfied. I feel like I will never meet someone who will just love and accept me and want to be with me unequivocally.
I'm sorry for the bummer post, guys.