I just need somewhere to put this. I know this is a weird place for it perhaps but I really dont know where else to do it. Tw suicide/death.
Now that I come to write this, I don’t even know what to say. You know when there’s a celebrity whose life touched you, and then suddenly they’re gone? Prince for example. And you feel stupid for feeling anything, because you didn’t know them. That’s where I’m at right now.
A singer I love committed suicide today. I didn’t know him. But I know what he stood for. In a country where the approach to LGBT issues is to pretend that LGBT people don’t exist and hope they go away, he openly, repeatedly and at risk to his career supported gay rights and trans people. He always spoke up. I cannot tell you what this meant to me. But it had a big impact on my life. He was the one that I knew I could rely on to see me as a person.
And now he’s gone. And I don’t know what to do with myself. I don’t know how to process it. I’m so heartbroken. I cannot imagine how his loved ones are feeling right now. He brought so many people happiness. He did so many good things, he helped so many people. I truly hope he’s found peace. I will miss him more than I have words for. I know that things being hard lately is making me feel this more strongly, but that doesn’t help me make the feelings go away.
Thank you for letting me have this space. You don’t need to reply. I don’t know if I’ll answer even if you do. Rest in peace Jonghyun.