There's this big vintage market that I'm doing with my friend who I love but is super flakey. I was looking forward to it, and today I'm just really tired and not feeling it. I also remembered the last one I did and how I felt like an awkward outsider because I'm not dressed in cutoffs and boots and a big floppy hat. I tried to chat with other vendors and my friend's friends and it was just weird and awkward the whole time and I felt like I was in 6th grade again.

Like, I'm a pretty cool person with interesting things to talk about but whenever I'm around certain people they make me feel like I'm really uncool and no one likes me. Sigh.