I’m feeling pretty, um, scrambled and panicky, with the Roy Moore and Louis CK news. Same way my main reaction to Donald Trump being elected was to feel like I was being sexually assaulted all day everyday by the American People. I just wanted to get that off my chest. If anyone would like to share feelings, go for it. If not, thank you for reading mine.
The Roy Moore one gets me because the conversation is already being centered around whether he was romantic (because romance can’t be predatory right?) and different time and all that, and I have some wonderful memories of being groomed by a would-be sexual predator (who was my boss at my weekend job) at ages 15-18 when he was in his mid to late 30s. Luckily nothing happened but I remember my parents not thinking he was creepy and I thought I was supposed to like his attention and my friends thought it was cool an older guy was into me. It’s one of those memories that doesn’t really make me outright upset, but it makes me feel disgusting.
Here’s some TMI for everyone: my sex drive has been basically IN THETOILET since last summer, and it is because I feel like I’m being beaten over the head with rape culture every second of everyday.
For anyone who needs it:
https://www.rainn.org/ - the National Sexual Assault Hotline. 1-800-656-4673