I’ve been awake since 3:50am and can’t seem to fall back asleep. After almost an hour of trying, I’ve given up.
What does everyone have planned for today?
I’m having lunch with my mom and brother, and I’m feeling incredibly anxious about it. My brother and I don’t have a good relationship anymore, and we haven’t spoken in months. There is way too much to get into, but a mix of drug use, anger, and possible mental health issues has made my brother a very difficult person to deal with. He seems to finally be doing better and getting his head straight again, so I’m hoping for the best but anticipating the worst. I even chose a lunch spot that we could easily get up and leave from in case things go sour. I’m honestly not looking forward to lunch, and that makes me feel pretty guilty since I do love my brother and would like to have a good relationship with him again. But, we’ll see how it goes.
And this turned out to be more of a downer post than I meant it to be. Whoops! Hopefully y’all have some better things going on.