I had my lumpectomy on Friday. Somehow I was pretty calm the day before and the day off - well, thanks partially to the kolonpin. The hospital was great and the surgery went well. And the surgeon told my family (sadly, I didn't get to speak to her myself after the operation) that my nodes are clean. I'm generally very happy about this, but I can't help but wonder if it's really true - could they have missed something? And I'm also focused on the next big unknowns - everything we'll find out from the pathology report.

Anyway, overall I'm relieved, but it's hard to shake the fear and those moments where anger also starts creeping in.