Please talk me out of this panic attack. My best friends wedding went from a free at a local garden with a potluck dinner, to a 95 guest sit down dinner and ceremony. I am the only bridesmaid, as the other one had to back out. So now it's all on me to buy a gift, and throw a damn shower. I can't afford a shower, even if I saved money for the next year and a half.

I'm so angry and upset, I'm shaking. This was NOT THE PLAN. It was supposed to be small and cute and CHEAP. But now, it's a fucking $60+ per person nonsense at a catering hall 45 minutes away from home, which means I also have to rent a hotel room. That big long food post I wrote a few weeks ago is the wedding I'm talking about. While the food is delicious and just fantastic, all the other stuff that has to go into this is scaring me. Oh god I need a free vacation.