I ended a relationship of 8 years earlier in the year, partly because I knew I couldn't stay with him long-term and partly because I was in love with someone else.

This someone else and I met 10 years ago. We fell in love immediately, and we fell hard. We never properly got together because we were both kind of fucked up. He was an addict, I was using a lot of drugs, it just wasn't going to work. But, we kept in touch all those years and he was always there, in the back of my mind. I'd never love anyone the same way.

We tried. I just...I think it might be a situation where we are in love but can't be together.

I'm just so so so so tired.