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What am I doing with my life?

Having a bit of an existential crisis here. Blah. Ever have one of those days where you just can't shake the feeling that you are wasting your life/time/whathaveyou?

I keep applying and interviewing for promotions back on the mainland, but I'm not getting them. I need more experience, or so they say, but I won't get that experience here. I won't get relocation assistance unless I get promoted at least one pay grade higher than where I am now, though. I definitely can't afford the move on my own.

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And I'm kind of in a holding pattern anyway because we won't know where MitsuBT will end up going to law school until December. Once we know that, I can focus my job search to where we'll be for the next three years. Cross your fingers for Stanford, because I do not want to live on the East Coast.

So I'm stuck where I am for at least another 6 months to a year, and I feel like I'm just wasting time. I'm trying to decide what I want to do with my life, but I've come up with nothing. I have a two year degree in IT, but it's pretty much useless without certifications, and I don't even know if I want to shell out the money for certs when I don't even know if IT is what I want to do. Ideally, I'd love to go to school for a psych degree, but I don't know what I want to do beyond that. Research? I don't know.

So can anyone recommend some kind of online classes that are free or extremely cheap (the cost of living here ensures that I will be poor forever if I don't get out) that will keep me occupied for a few months? Maybe IT related, maybe not. Just interesting. Otherwise, I'm gonna pick up Rosetta Stone and get back to learning Arabic. For no reason other than I want to.

How did you figure out what you wanted to be when you Grew Up? Any advice is welcome, as I feel kinda lost. I've been focused more on survival than anything else, but now I'm finally starting to get where I have some free time to devote to Finding Myself, you know?

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