For the first time, ever, I'm feeling...self conscious about my weight. I don't think I ever have before. I've been a size 12 and a size 4, and now I'm around an 8/10*. And for some odd reason, I'm all a sudden wondering if I shouldn't be wearing shorts or a bikini. I wore shorts today since it was a million degrees in Brooklyn, and I felt...weird.

I have no idea why all of a sudden I'm feeling..."fat". Maybe it's cuz I haven't been to the gym in forever? Cuz I've been eating poorly? When I was 16 I was around the same size I am now, if not bigger, and I had no qualms about wearing shorts or bikinis. But now at 22 I'm being insane.

What is this shit? Anyone else just feel weird about their body image out of absolutely nowhere?

*I'm NOT trying to sit here and say "oh god I'm so fat." I know a size 8/10 is not that big. So please don't get mad at me. I'm just saying I'm feeling oddly self-conscious.