Perhaps a bit of both? I had so many things I wanted to share with GT (because you all are so freaking awesome), and threw my hat in the ring for posting privileges. BAM! Got 'em!
There is another place I wanted to write and do Q&A for, and the offer to do that came last week. I hadn't even expressed interest, it just landed in my lap. It's not a huge deal, it's not a paying job. It would however have the potential to benefit some people who have survived (or are stuck in) relationships with cluster b personality disorders. I would love to be of service to people in that scenario. I get that pain.
So, here I am, two brilliant places to write, share, learn....and I've got nothing. There are ideas swirling around in my head, yet they aren't coming together in a cohesive way.
I'm not going to author a great tome, or write timeless poetry, and that's okay. I'm not a genius and I'm not an idiot (I've certainly had flashes of both).
I think, maybe it's because so much high quality writing, such well formed ideas, and glorious debate comes from here. Some of the things I've read here, things I've learned, just wow. They've rocked me, and they shake my very foundation (I'm looking at you NinjaCate). How have I not learned some of these things? How can I overcome *me* and write about them to learn more?
I feel challenged. I hope I can sort a way to be up to the task.
PS. I heart you guys.